:/

I feel bad, bros.

Today was shaping up to be great. I didn't sleep, but I finished the book, got optimism, jogged to and from class, jogged EVERYWHERE today, chatted up three girls eventhoughihaveminimuminterestinthem, and just was a bro. But then I went to hang out with a friend and all that kind of went down the drain.

Since I usually don't feel that great when I'm around them anymore, my mind just automatically becomes a dick and shuts them out. I felt horrible because afterwards, I realized that I was an all around awful person. I treated them like they were a classmate or something, aka didn't give much of a fuuuu (though I'm working on that too). I almost turned around and went back and apologized, but eh. I'll just try not to do it in the future. I guess if I lost them as a friend I'd feel remorseful, so that's my motivation. I dunno I find it weird how I have to make myself care enough. It's probably just temporary until my life gets on track though.

Also is it weird that I'm not freaking out about this weekend at all? It's like 'lol I have so much work' but I'm just so confident I can do it all idk. PLUS I'm completing a goal I've had since I was like 14 :D Seven years in the making, but better late than never.

Even though I'm going to be posting later today with my numbers, I'm gonna post this here. I put it in a /fit/ thread.

My goals:

-Become a highly sought-after animation director.
-Have a high ottermode/low athletic bodyweight aka ripped.
-3x Bench, 3x DL, 3x Squat while still being aesthetic as fuck.
-Get a nice place close enough to LA to be considered in the city but also ten times quieter with my own personal gym.
-Learn to invest and get cashmoneys.
-Find a woman who is on my level and not willing to settle for mediocrity in life.


I guess that's what I want in a nutshell. Like, I can add stuff about being alpha but whatever. I'd rather just do what I want. With my goals in front of me, I have to go for them. The only two things I don't really care about is the 3x core and the LA thing. I don't really care where I live tbh. Everything else is what I want though.


So, yeah. There we go. Update later today with new numbers.


EDIT: New goal. Buy a Superman shirt as soon as I get close to my goal. Mid-term goal, but still a goal.